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its been a long time!!!!!!

2010-05-31T11:42:00.006+08:00

I went missing for so long....

wat am i to say so many events happen...

sadness came first, pulled through it somehow

it was a bomb on my life never expected

i was lost

then revived from it

then a series of events came

Then......Im married finally to my love of my life

its been 7 mths plus........eversince wedding...

now

waiting for

its kinda fast but age is catching

up.

now in mum's plc.

that's all for now...

will update soon...

My english exam.....wooooooo!

2008-12-10T20:39:00.004+08:00

Some updates

recently my workplc indian ppl had a dinner

muz say a costly one

however, it was hospital treat..for our audit effort...

one of my colleagues chose a plc in tekka

yaaa tekka...

a resturant called

Lagnna (Bare foot dinning)

truely ya every1 sat on the floor to eat...

kinda tiring after work

but

interesting!

my group of colleagues

Food

colourful food

During the dinner, v had lots of fun....talking was enough....v laugh our hearts out...

lots of picts taken by my colleagues.....

as usual me aint into photo but wasnt spared..

after so much of food.....

here comes my english international exam...

wat am i to say?

well i did my best...

wasnt an easy exam...

i guess tougher than the 'o' levels i took in the past

i borrowed a book from my friend to practice...

when i went for the real exam ...

wow!

i could see the diff

it was a task in front of me three hrs...

i realise the way the exam was like...

aint sure abt the outcome...

i shall wait next week..

if it is not in favour..

i will have to try again...

in a better way like attending classes n studying more hard...

aint sure how best is my best???

im upset...quite..

hmmm :-(

A mth later...

2008-11-28T21:40:00.003+08:00

Tats me again........didnt say anything for a mth..

alot of things..

Mayb after i change my add....no drive to write.

well i had a gd mth with my close ppl...going out, wedding, doing things im suppose to like set a date for my eng exam..

i miss shamrock alot..he very funny n loving..

i duno wat to say abt some things or ppl

sometimes ppl come n go for reasons.......

ive got not much to say, little upset of how ppl u thought were close behave such..

i talk less n not much of info to give...

i believe every 1 we were once close need not b after awhile......its how much u think the person is impt to ur life...or when in need...

life goes on.....im ok..juz a little down...

wat i wanna say is ...time will tell.

My Deepavali

2008-10-28T23:31:00.006+08:00

Nowadaz....my updates r quite slow

well one reason

very busy...

work.

life isnt tat relax past weeks..

I had like nine daz work then one off day n another 8 daz n off day...

now im on annual leave...

deepavali

but first.

my mum's bday 25th october 2daz before deepavali.

After a day's housework, she cut a small cake...she is 56yrs old

next deepavali.....here some picts.

my younger bro the vain guy....

sister n bro....

tis punjabi suit is shamrock chose last yr deepavali...im wearing it tis deepavali..miss him so much..im wearing it wen he is away..bad gal

he pose some more....i took like 30picts juz him....luvs to pose...wat to do pampered by me hehehe.....

my family guest...sanika sitting so comfortably in my room sofa..i gotto snap a pict...

i didnt snap alot of picts....quite alot of guests tis yr...i spent time in kitchen n helping

parents..wore simple with simple makeup unlike my previous yrs took time to look gd..my

colleagues also appeared...but gd thing was v finished early..before 10pm..time to rest...

it was a nice deepavali..

quiet n nice...

of coz without shamrock quite sad..

anyway

my visiting iznt over there will b more updates..

till then gdnite.

Im BACK!

2008-09-12T22:04:00.004+08:00

after a long time of dead blog....

i resusitated it successfully...hehehe

wel i was busy n didnt reali take picts of plcs im supposed to..

very bad.....

now back with little updates..

so far im the same never change..

my shamrock is in sydney...

miss him lots...

never the same without him..

long distance relationship past mth..

kinda different...

but im juz sinking with work daily...

finali had time to update....

ONAM

my usual celebration at grandma's plc

grandma did prayers for my grandfather, uncle n my great grandma..

hey no joke my great grandma alive still wen i was born..

she died wen i was 4yrs old...believe it!

well ans those daz they marry very young age so she was alive

tats me casual looking.....wel every 1 wears simple unlike deepavali..

it was a gd day at grandma plc...my little cousins noisy to max...

saw my other cousin with her little gal...so cute..

didnt manage take a pict

wel the whole day was eating n eating..

but all vege...

ya aint my cup of tea...but grandma cooking was awesome!

i ate full...almost sleepy..

evening more ppl came...

serving them...

and..

Sanika's bday celebration

she is born on september 11.......

remember???....7yrs back the terrorist attacks???

same date i guess same time coz she was a wee hour baby...

i was her nanny when she was a mth old........dearest to my heart so is she..

i bought a little cake for my darling gal........n cut

she was soooo happy....

hahaha....me too...

luv her lots...

The day was over with lots of luv.......

my grandma as usual gave me a cup of chaya with luv...

after some time tis yr onam i took a off to b with my mum's side celebration..

its a simple day colourful with family..

of coz malayalam speaking day...haha

aint gd at it..

well its been long eversince i saw u personally or heard from u..

didnt talk much wen v met tat time..u seem occupied..

nowadaz its like nothing to talk no importance to meet up or keep in contact frequently like v were before

im not sure y it like tis now..

but i do see ur updates wat u hve been up to wenever i can,..

ur meeting up with ppl n family..

onli means of communication..

v stay onli a short distance away from eachother but u seem to b far..

every1 is busy but time is there..

time to come..

aint sure whether v would go back to the time v were distant

like those yrs..

i do miss u..

gdnite..

Planning wats next?...

2008-07-24T12:44:00.004+08:00

Cut my hair short?.......contemplating alot..

aint sure should i?.......

next shopping ......got alot more to buy...didnt spend any for myself past mth..

Gd friends wedding coming up.....made piorities to attend....

next mth is kinda busy mth......

calculating every cash i spend.....

not even taking cab nowadaz........

saving up for future, studies etc.....

finding for jobs.....my career is at peak in my current job but deciding to leave....

a big step to do.....before tat a stable job in hands with enough cash is my piority.

2day is my second day off.......gotto go out awhile..

bye

Past week.

2008-07-19T22:59:00.003+08:00

The week past swiftly with things happening...been a very busy week onli 2day i had the rest

A week of international audits i was picked as one of the

chosen one...i was given 5 daz morning had b work early n stay in till 5pm

outing wit shamrock

catching up time with him leaving to austrailia

after work i was out...

somehow i manage dealing it

Yesterday was the last day of audit n he leaving singapore...

audit went well...celebration end of the day...

i left not celebrating to the airport for him

to send him off with his family n friends

sad...suprising i didnt cry when i saw him leaving us........

juz hold on to it...

he did to..

miss him alwaz.

2day

I woke up late....but had appointment with colleagues......a visit to my manager house..

calls were nonstop....

went for a visit n to eat...

guess where?

i dun eat fish much.........but i ended up in Fish n Co...

had a platter of seafood....n ice-cream...

lots of jokes n laughter......had a gd day out.

im hm now......juz sleepy...

late alreadi 11plus.......read my new book n sleep

ya a new habit im starting read n sleep early.....

Gdnite.

wel

2008-07-10T22:00:00.003+08:00

You have said all u wanted a note left in each of ur blog

im also hurt...there's alwaz two ppl hurt...its not onli u or abt u

wel u said i got lots of assumptions..

question1: when u ask a person when u r free?

ans: im busy got plans

question 2: ask again when r u free?

ans: got plans

question 3: will u bother to ask again?

ans : no

wel there were daz i did ask u when u r free...u seem to b busy.

occupied..i saw in ur blog. u met ur colleagues..friends..updated.

wel im onli a few blocks away from u but u dun hve time.

after a while i hang out wit some of friends n shamrock..work n out..

u said quite an amount of words on msn..like im prob friend to u

u said u cant wait for one call of mine coz u got things to do busy.

i never ask u wait for my call..

after some time i came out to northpoint juz to have a sec pass u, ur bday gift

u juz had no time..i never ask to sit n talk wit me.

..be it i went back home.

u may say im childish, ego, pride, spoiled brat etc...b it..u never had time for me past few mths...its like the sec sch daz that u went ur own way. upset..

im also busy..my work is 12 hr shift nowadaz for the audit in my hospital..im one of the chosen person..my managers r burdening me...i got no time for shamrock either..he is leaving asap next wk...

u r never forgotten by me..one of my impt person in life...but i dunno wats up wit u..

up to u wat u want.....

note: ur clubbing picts aint charming..

A BBQ with my station ppl...

2008-07-03T13:18:00.001+08:00

The day v all tried to gather for a small BBQ

before our international hospital audit coming

soon next two weeks time....lots of stress

a good time to ventilate.....

My colleague chenna n her hubby organise a small BBQ under their block...a small hut..

Lots of food contributed by colleagues.........most of them turned up after work.......including my managers.....

Had gd time...laughing eating etc..........

smiling faces......

This is half the group of ppl

and
had a new face in the group
shamrock turned up for the event
i was happy
he is leaving in a wks time
making effort to catch up time wit me
after a tiring day of work
intro him to my whole group of ppl
The day ended with a bottle of wine.
the last ppl to leave had wine..
laughter n maybe high
all of us left after tat........
now waiting for the audit its a killer aint sure how to go
through it...
shamrock is leaving tat busy week
aint sure will i c him off
im on duty till late...
sad
coz will not c him till next yr......
gonna miss him alot.....

Thinking and thinking when i juz start thinking..

2008-06-30T00:55:00.001+08:00

Thinking and thinking...........u may ask

what?

wel i juz want to ....

angry no

sad mayb

fustrated mayb

tired mayb

what's in the mind?

who needs freedom.......am i going overboard?

y muz i tell off my mind when every1 has the rite to b free to do anything..........

i luv my freedom now.....not so much but i still hve my little space where no1 can enter....

Juz me onli...

y a relationship need so much of right on one and another....juz a relationship onli...i realise that..

no1 has the right to stop anything tat one wants.......

next thing 2 ask y am i hinting it?

i juz feel......i luv to think........im upset with the way sumthings r...

i dunno y i should change it wen no one makes the effort...

y i must care very simple...leave it alone....

i become the bad one when i show my temper or reason out things......

im capable of being myself.....instead of going through these hussles......

upset isnt wat any1 wants...........

i realise sumthing now....

aint too upset........juz a little....
at the end of the day, ib fine.......
a little thinking will help.......im gona rest now.

coming thursday my nurse's station gals n women having a

gathering BBQ...at friends plc.......
families etc......looking 4ward to spend the evening with
every1...

gdnite

Bridesmaid 1 dress aint 27 dresses

2008-06-09T22:09:00.003+08:00

Me looking tired early wake up look....

Hello ppl, here come the girl in white dress....
wat 2 do...

aint my option...u noe wat my first time touring in a white dress....

hmm...surprise...when im put for the challenge i go 4 it...for my friend's sake..

yes my friend pauline's wedding...

both of us passed out as staff nurse to same ward after our poly..

a little favour she asked me

well she told me strictly no picts of her wedding in my blog...i respect her wish....but little update on her wedding.....

it was gd...i woke up as early as 4 plus in the morning.....dressed all white...total white woman...

it was a criteria by her......

head to her plc in a cab.....she looked beautiful in white long dress...true a girl reali looks a woman when it time of marriage...

Her mum was welcomes us alwaz....prepared breadfast and drinks..

i didnt eat much...

All bridesmaid stationed by 6.30 am......

my chinese friends were very gd....they translated all the events and chinese traditions to me coz i was the onli indian gal looked blur......

i had gd experience with the whole event.......everyone so friendly...i never felt left alone.....smiles....

so much of food in her in-law plc and buffets at her parents house n her house.......

me & meimei click during our waiting time in the car....

all her bridesmaid were very gd n of coz pretty....haha..

we ended at noon in her own hs.......

my first chinese wedding experience........

A run and a wonderful time......

2008-06-08T13:26:00.008+08:00

2day is sunday my leave is ending asap next tue......alreadi!!!

Had an interesting week.........out every single day.......

laughs some tears........shelling from family came hm 1am.......

but never bored.....tired every day

vivocity never left alone.......

watch indiana jones ......eat...shop...

went mana mana in east coast park for a drink.........me sitting so lazy.....looks like my hands longer...haha

These two drinks r creation of a person....v r the first testers....both got vast difference....looks can b deceiving.....

The pink was choosen for me........"cant wait it to finish it"

And the day for the run.......mean gunasegari running?

dun believe huh?......ya...not me juz for the sake of hospital name.........

love these shoes.........lay my eyes on it wen i saw it........pink, green and white....nice combination..

This is my 5.8km runner......julie....never bored in particitaing such events...im proud of her..

The first batch of 10km runners........

mY collleagues posing for exciting walk not run.......luv them

while my exciting journey back i saw a monkey!.....but my friends were too scared...i was excited to take a picture near close up.......my friends pulled me.......i dunno can c or not.......

after that v went changi point for gd food.........shared our food n exciting stories.........

short visit to my manager's hs nearby ..........came back hm...

2morrow is my friend pauline's big day.........i gotto help her..i got assignment to follow...juz read her schedule...6am it starts.......

now i gotto head to get my heels n makeup items...... will update soon.

Till then i leave tis pict of my cousin navin.........

cute izint he....my mum's sayang...i asked him to smile for the pict ...he did it well...

hmm..wat hve i been doing?

2008-05-31T21:19:00.010+08:00

Hmm wat hve i been doing?.....

im back...looking forward like the baby in the pict.....

Haha tis white dress baby reminds me of my white dress......

anyway come to the point wats happening past few daz?

wel my tonsillitis got better...resolved..

wel after a wk...met shamrock..

i had 2daz off...

Went out two daz.........it was a gd time spent..

met a friend who i ve been talking past few mths....shamrock friend..

its a was planned there n then v went to meet..

she was awesome!...a nice friend..

we went for a drink at a plc i never been before....

actuali gd every wk i get to noe new plcs.....cool atmosphere..

everything went wel...but first time out i vomitted........bad feeling...

actuali i guess some posioning.......but it was ok..had caring ppl around me...taking care of me..

nice chatting session ended almost 12midnight.......

ya same thing dad mad..........calling my hp.....

some how i manage get hm

first time

again first time.........

shamrock sent me off hm!....

aint tat shocking!...ya me too...

something unusual ..........

the next day was abt SEX AND THE CITY.

three of us met up quick in the afternoon for the movie..

shamrock first person to reach

wel women r alwaz late mah.......

story of 4 women for the afternoon

CARRIE

CHARLOTTE

SAMANTHA

MIRANDA
The man in their lives..........

The decision to marry...wedding......

The moments of saddness surronding them.........realising things.........being there for eachother....

should watch the movie...actually ive not seen the tv series.... my first time watching the story...

true its nice..........

spent my two daz well..

went back to work........

BUT!

ME ON LEAVE NEXT WEEK.....YIPPEEE!!!

Nurse is sick..

2008-05-20T21:51:00.005+08:00

The nurse is sick........

I lost my voice....cant speak juz air is coming out...wit little sound

When i woke up in the morning,i thought i became mute.......

Some how or rather i still went to work.....drowsy wit all the procodein i took....

my throat is red n painfull.....

ive been not well since last wk.....flu..i took my own meds to recover...but not helping

still i went to work tis morning.........dun want my colleague to suffer alone....but

i cant help it......unable to talk.....my patients r also having fever.......

i left the ward to see my own staff dr.....

That is a plc i wont go again.........

i waited like 2hrs to get to the dr......

slept on the chair sitting......at one point i woke up n saw my number..n saw the dr........

i dun think i wana go there again....waiting time killer plus unfriendly dr service...

medications arent my needs......2 many....

came hm eat n knock off like zombie......

woke up late evening.................

Not much updates for now...

A Celebration for Mother

2008-05-12T19:53:00.004+08:00

Mothers' Day celebration sumting all dun miss..

every yr a little v do to recognise our mums..

my family usually celebrate wit a cake..

dad does for mum...

Tis yr v went grandma plc for a mini celebration....

but two cakes!

my aunts, mum n grandma.....little devils at the side...who cant wait to lay hands on cake!

sum mums and children missing in the picture.........all of them cut the cake together...

As a daughter..ive not been making my mum happy lately..

i will try...

everytime i do well in school n take a another step in life..

mum has been alwaz proud...

my mini acheivements in work n studies..

the person who is alwaz there for us...

luv u mum..

Mama ( Spice Girls )

She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free

Catching me in places that I knew I shouldn't be

Every other day I crossed the line I didn't mean to be so bad I never thought you would become

the friend I never had

Back then I didn't know why Why you were misunderstood

So now I see through your eyes All that you did was love Mama

I love you.Mama I care Mama I love you . Mama my friend.

You're my friend I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now

Every little thing you said and did was right for me

I had a lot of to think about,about the way I usedto be

Never had a sense of my responsibility Back then I didn't know why Why you were

misunderstood

So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love Mama,

I love you. Mama, I care Mama, I love you. Mama ,my friend. You're my friend But now I'm

sure I know why, Why you were misunderstood So now I see through your eyes All I can give you is love is love

Mama I love you. Mama, I care Mama, I love you. Mama, my friend,You're my friend Mama, I

love you, Mama ,I care Mama, I love you, Mama, my friend, You're my friend

a song to all mum........

The word to describe me is moody...

2008-05-10T12:44:00.010+08:00

Title says it all abt me 2day.....

Saturday blues

y?....its juz me...mayb my hormones..

What ever aint in the mood to explore it.

Aint in the mood to talk much to anyone.....

Lots of things in my mind....

Will tell in words.......

Mother's Day gifts for my mummy....dunno wat to get her..Sari? jewellery?

2. My friend's wedding........

What abt it is.......bride's maid thingy... what to wear..me aint sure whether i wana to b

complicated...she got whole list of programmes lined up wit her..WHITE DRESS..take another

friend for shopping...

3. My work issues....i got retreat next wk wit my manager...not prepared abt it..

Muz contribute sumthing......my brain actuali.

4. My best friend's bday is onli thing im sure abt...

5. My career plans finding a job before i resign....

6. My june holiday plans...my annual leave...

Things in my mind...alot more...

Im juz complicated wit things i want.........elder bro alwaz scolds me abt it...

Im aint planned in life...

2 me..planning doesnt work out..very simple answer

Im very very fickle minded...at the moment i want it but i dun wan another moment....

its more obvious wen i getting older...

Anyway what happen yesterday in singapore.........what happen in vegas

I had a busy working day.........

so many orders...for patients.....discharging patients..asap..

After tat have to meet shamrock...wants to watch movie..

last minute meeting...i was an hour late from meeting shamrock..

but i got there first.....

I watch the movie.............

What Happen in Vegas

Comedy.....actuali two ppl...find their happiness in vegas after aweful break up n lost of job...

Cameron Diaz story juz hit me some issues she face in the movie show wat i was...b4

breakup.....finding a happiness....

Do things wen some1 dares.........drinking being crazy

Crying to best friend.......

Get drunk n wild nite.........married.. hit a jackpot...there goes the story

"What's urs is mine baby"

My favourite sentence eversince i saw the shots.........muz watch movie....

After the movie.......wen to eat n drink.....

A Beautiful plc.......i never been......shamrock brought me....

Y do i say its beautiful?........its situated with nice senories...

A plc i fall in luv with......i was juz enjoying the plc......

As usual somthing have to happen wen everything so nice.......

My anger........unhappiness.......too sensitive wen in luv....

Walked........sent off shamrock ........head home back.......

Reached hm 12midnight exactly......drunk abit slept.......

wake up

mum lecture

staying hm 2day

no moving out of house

visit my grandma for mother's day

a mini celebration for all mothers... my mum..aunts, grandma

oops muz buy my cousins sanika n navin.....sumting on the way..

tat little friends called up morning for things...

cute aint they.....

ok me get going.......

c how my moodyness goes off......

My Unforgettable May Day

2008-05-01T22:10:00.013+08:00

Surprise!

Im back with a surprised look!

Haha.....

Well i didnt update for sometime.........

nothing special....

I finally cut my hair and rebond it again

ya again...

my gd friend will definately say im crazy to rebond again

Wel work same

But abit upset wit shamrock

shamrock was busy couldnt spend time with me..

me nagging etc.....shamrock got worked up..

2day May day...of all the time 2day i got a public holiday off!

Couldnt believe huh!...ya me too...

But had a early morning call....wake up...call to come back to work got ppl mc..

I wasnt in the mood to go work....

I was having abit of flu...took piriton the night b4 couldnt make it...

anyway workplc mcs common on public holidays...

i had enough!

Went to meet shamrock...wanted to meet for the day..

I went marina square...

WoW the plc is awesome!...

It like new to me coz i didnt go there like 1 or 2 yrs..some reasons..it was renovating...etc

Went to watch

Harold And Kumar Escape From Guantanamo Bay

Damn funny!

Its abt two friends harold and kumar.....a journey that went wrong..

jailed....escape....

finding the right person to clear their names

a journey with interesting encounters.......

lots of interesting scenes...Amsterdam the place called heaven...

I realise y izit so...

Anyway after that a good meal...

Head to explanade.........duno shamrock was full of surpries...

Walked to chocolate bar had chocolate fondue...reali yammy...

after that my final surprise came..........

tricked me walk to the Singapore flyer...

My big surprise!...shamrock had the tickets!...took out form his pocket......

Sooo sweet....!!!!!

I was lost of words!..reali...

sweetest thing.....I reali appreciate this....

I took few picts at the highest point...shamrock was clicking away lots of picts..... singapore looked tiny..things looked like minitures.

End of the day.........we were tired head back home...shamrock damn tired didnt sleep whole day after night shift for me...

Took all the efforts to make me happy...im juz lost of words...

A day i wont forget.......im happy...That's y it is my unforgettable May Day...

Gdnite...

Updates....

2008-04-13T22:42:00.009+08:00

(dedicated to my shamrock dear)

Hello.....its been long since my updates..

Nothing much life has been the same..

Going work and hm....out wit my shamrock person.

wat's seriously new is...

im actuali planning for my june leave...

a trip?...not sure of destination...

parents hve agreed for the holiday...

surprise but aint sure how?

my job search also never ending...

wat else?

ya some1 is appearing to me nowadaz...

i realise tat...im aint looking for tat person..

im suprise to see him...getting my attention..

but im juz me...i was rude to him tat day..

tats old story....

anyway 2day is tamil new yr...

normal working day....

after work i went to see Street Kings

Wow!

i luv keanu reeves
movies....

actuali him lah

eversince i saw him in speed.......

my sec sch daz

its was really nice movie...........

2day i went wit my shamrock (nickname)

gd movie....watch it!

after movie came hm....bro again restrictions

my god!

i give up!

i dun like restrictions nowadaz

me way out of it now..

nobody should...

simple matter

i dun like screaming etc...

telling me

plss !

am i gonna listen?

i hate it!

men dun understand reali

i dun wish to argue..

i had enough with everything...

im not totally angry juz mad! to say a little..

im gonna blow up one of the daz....reali

im a girl who has been nice n listen

i dun think i can cope wit it anymore..

Im juz there

2008-04-02T22:40:00.007+08:00

Its been more than a week me
update

wats up wit me
lately

2day im
juz........

Tired

not in the mood

to begin wit im sad actually

so where am i?

juz there..

im not in a mood of
arguing.....

defensive.............etc

juz b sad over and done wit
it...

am i dragging...guess
so

wel i didnt wake up form wrong
side...

juz ppl aint making my
day..

my family luvs me but they dun c my
interest

marriage which is
far..im not there

cant pursue
studies

same days

being scolded for being thin

compare past
present

thinking wat happen in
past

ppl that r gone forgotten
but reminded

im sad ........very actually

At the end of the day.......what i feel
is...

juz leave everything to my
determination.....go all the way for wat i want in
life..

im fed up wit this rountine
life...........

i wana go all the way for watever i
want

no such thing as things will happen when
its has to happen

BULLSHIT!

2day i went to work.......

the onli 8hrs im out of my personal
life

....actuali my peacefull
time

Nothing matters to me except my
work....completing task...

After work everything comes back to
mind...

Took my time came home....shower eat
etc...

First task after that on my
laptop...

Search for jobs......FOUND!

send off my resume received
email.......will reply soon

basically i wana work n study overseas my ULTIMATE DREAM now..

im not sure how far can i
go...

but im willing to
try...

Coz studying and working r the two things
im good at...

im alwaz being stop to do wat i
want

tis time i will
try

can say im saying tis out of my
fustration

i luv my family n friends,
ppl

juz wana b myself

juz quiet

im juz sitting in my room and laptop
on

2day is not my
day

now im gona watch movie Game
Plan

on my laptop....sleep after tat

my tv is occupied with family watching
show..

dun wana join them juz b myself..

gdnite.

My luv for tattoo

2008-03-23T19:48:00.014+08:00

2day had an hectic day

Same ill pts..went out a while..came back hm

..but somthing in my mind

its been whole week in my mind..

eversince i see ppl wit tattoo...

temptations so there...!

Well Ive been thinking abt it since last yr...

n me watching maimi ink n LA ink....

Even my whole family watches it...

but they shook their head a NO for tattoo

they say it isnt gd image of a girl...potrays bad image

Y????

i thought ppl should like a person for who one is???..

doesnt character mean anything? or not important?

ask seriously y isnt it ok?

its a body art...

the owner of the body has the right...right?

mine is tradtional family but i guess they should give in my little request...

y isnt a person wit tattoo gd or does it change a person in whole?

my desire to have one little tattoo.....a memory of my life..

when comes to my desire

i never say no to it...

And when sumting is on my mind persistantly, ive been gone all the way for it..

aint been a person who never do anything wit rationalizing with things..

To me its a simple and ok issue

not gonna tattto my whole body...juz a part...

i have alwaz been a family person not abt going over any1's word...

Even a guy i like, objects it...never against his words..

oneday eventually they might agree to it...

But i juz thinking..must say alwaz abt it past few days..

it will never b out of my mind...

Day went such...

2008-03-20T23:42:00.010+08:00

Wat am i to say...?..i woke up wit a bad dream end

woke up

A dream of my luv one not ok...

too many thoughts

then started to get hook wit laptop...

browsing for things...setting up..

i found some interesting info abt ppl i noe...nvm

i started to search for job...ya..me wana quit..

Get new job elsewhere..basically im tired..

Wana go new environment..

dad is now asking me to go aussie...work

Im suprise!

anyway c wat comes next...

Evening was prayer time...brother participating in panguni 2morow same as thaipusam

prayed..n

prayed...

Then went to wait for deity god murugan statue to come in chariot..with priests

all the indian ppl wait for prayers

Every yr it comes to the neighbourhood from the temple

holding my grandma hand tight i went pray...coz she was weak

Got a glimpse of statue..wit so much ppl around

sumthing abt tis event i believe is...i am attending tis festival since my childhood daz..

every yr i ask sumthing

the following yr its done...

tis yr...dunno..

been not my day today...

Im juz upset...sighs

10,000 B.c

2008-03-13T01:00:00.009+08:00

The movie which i had no idea what was that....

I was called to watch the movie..tue afternoon on a heavy rainy day..

To me was what am i gonna understand with the stone age man language..

The movie started and i was suprised..actors spoke english..hahaha

Reali a nice movie!

Its a abt a young guy's love for his girl...who goes all the way to save her from

the evil ppl..or warlord..

A young mammoth hunter...who goes beyond all dangers to save his woman..n actually

shines out from others with his bravness n love..

He saves her n his ppl at the end of the day...

What was reali nice abt the movie was...the guy goes all the way to save his woman..

ya he did think abt the ppl..but didnt let go of her..

At the end of the day, how many guys actuali do that now...not saying there r

none but its less..truth

Very sad...really..

Its juz work n life.....with that also no much effort to keep a relationship

going.....

Very easy to say breakup when one cant go far...lame excuses..

Man n Woman r not like stone age..

Juz not the same...relationships r not the same......

?????

Past Few Daz

2008-03-11T12:57:00.001+08:00

Wow my nights shifts over........wow wat a weekend..

i was damn busy....had too many things to do..

Sitting awhile became impossible to me n my colleagues

Too many distruptions....

I started work at 9pm..till 7am..i was on my toes.....my night shifts never been

such after sooo lonnng.....

After work v made it a point to have breakfast n taxi was everyday hmm.

wow spend daily on taxi fare...reali heart pain...

but v were reali very tired.....

Yesterday....came home...chat with dad n brother...having breakfast

slept for an hour...

Had a wake up call...1pm..

Got ready n left... for massage...realli need a massage after the long busy nights...

Wow damn sleepy sat on cab reach there

Went for traditional javanese massage....it was reali gd...

a moment my back pain was relieve...i felt reali relieve from my hospital stress..

I almost slept...

After that when back hm....and slept...poor brother took leave for me...waiting to

spend the day wit me...such a loving brother i ve..

hahaha.......

how sad is sad?

2008-03-06T20:19:00.001+08:00

How sad is sad?

tears r flowing sometimes dried up

Im juz so broken now..thinking everything is for the best...........

That's what every1 is saying

whatever happens is for the best and for a reason.........no matter whoever says anything

who is affected is the person will b feeling it...

What i wanna say is, whatever is now is been decided for the best..

luv is not everything..future of luv must b considered..

Cant go on for the sake of luv..parents arent there for us....we r juz walking for

day by day in this relationship....

i walked tis far wit u coz i luved u......

This decision i took after thinking well....sumthing ive been thinking long enough..

for me n u...juz i didnt noe the day b4 was the day..time to say it...

I noe u will understand me...

Even ive left...walked out...the daz spent wit u..my laughter, cries

n the daz u sat beisde me during my sickness..our moments..everything is in my heart

My luv is there.....but i cant hang on when there is no future to it...

Sometimes its best to let go...i did for us...understanding our situation n u well...

Dun hve to stress ourselves....

i did my best as a gf to u being there 4 u..completing ur wishes..accepting u for u finally n left..

All the best for the future...segari.

Thinking

2008-03-01T16:20:00.004+08:00

What can i say abt what im feeling...thoughts r flowing..

Sometimes v think it will b ok at the end of the day..

keep thinking such but truth might b it wont b..might not b..

But how far r v right abt that...

Aint angry or sad...juz thinking what's gonna b next...

Issues that ive past through..came over..now i juz wana decide

right this time..my best friend is alwaz there her words will ring impt in my life alwaz...

At the end of the day... a decision has to b made..i need time for that...i dunno how long will i take..but......

Hve gd day..till then..

Will update my decision...

Angry

2008-02-28T18:58:00.001+08:00

2day i am damn angry ....juz too much alreadi.

Since yesterday...controlling ....shut myself wit silence..

Its not me an angry girl...i hate it..do i hve a choice when ppl behave such..

Never ask me 2 much of my personal life.

Dun provoke me..alot wit lots of questions...

I hate answering such questions.....

I am not a girl who will get angry unnecessarily...but when i am..im shut silent...

My leave daz

2008-02-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

Its my second day of my leave....a wk of leave..wats been the best part is i am able to sleep till haha 12noon.very tired of working..My body clock is changed for this week.. hooked on the laptop..till my brothers n mum screaming...haha..me very naughty...

Resting for the week are the key words..

What i reali wanna do is sleep n chill out..plcs...eat which may not sound like me..I wannnnnn my chocolate milk shake..reali i luv it alot..

Shopping....

My new gucci shades

Juz shop for shoes n clothes..spending alot..

End of the day muz save...hahaha i think,i muz go on a thrifty mth..lets see how it goes..segari.

Birthday celebration for grandma

2008-02-25T21:02:00.001+08:00

It was saturday 23 feburary..my morning shift work..damn tiring...a day full of

work...ill pts..etc..didnt eat..i was going to faint wit the hectic work..but i was

still ok..a past tat showed up...nvm abt tat..

It was my grandma 75th birthday..all of us join in for the celebration..i didnt go for my workplc function...came back after work and dressed up for

celebration..my hp was ringing onstop uncle n aunt calling me to b there...headed to grandma plc..

To my shock so many relatives.....waiting..faces not seen long b4 came...

Another shocking news i was the photographer for the event...as i brought my

digicam wit me...took lots of picts...hve placed sum for viewing..below

A huge chocolate cake..

My grandma looking gd..after all the dressing up my aunts did..grandma is alwaz dresses up simple..wish my granddad was around..miss him

Me and grandma..smiling..luv her alot..

Getting the cake ready

grandma ready to cut the cake

chandran n grandma

Half my naughty cousins posing for the picture...

Me after all the photography session and eating smiling...

My day @ hm

2008-02-22T13:43:00.001+08:00

My so called messy rm

Wat to say...so lazy...woke up ate sitting with laptop..hmmm after yesterday's in and out of the

house...im so tired..but it was gd..i went to attend a talk @ hospital eventhough its my off

day..halfway left it..went out..bought alots of things hm...

Left hm evening to visit my cousin and her newborn baby so cute...had a chat wit her n her family...

well every1's hot question to me is when am i gonna marry.....hmmm.never had the ans alwaz..i dunoooo.......

After my cousin's hs...went to the airport meet kannan...going to uk to watch liverpool game..he is so excited..a dream of his came true..send him off..head back hm..ate sleep was late alreadi..

Today is been a lazy day...maybe wana go out later to chill...c how..the gd news is im on LEAVE next week.......gona shop like mad....

Something different today

2008-02-17T23:42:00.000+08:00

Sunday...i woke up early for a reason...first time in my life..had to go and queue up to see an elderly monk..for blessing..ive not done such..kannan was the person who told me abt such person..so this time i went with him to get blessings..

A glimpse of him in a sec

The queue build up so fast...the number of ppl grow in a split sec...v went near him an bow.. he splashed @ us holy water n blessed us..an interesting gd experience..

Saturday

2008-02-16T23:43:00.001+08:00

My grandma
Every saturday is a day to visit my grandma...she will b waiting with a cup of chaya(tea) for me.. family gathering on saturdays...aunts uncles...noisy cousins meet up...chatting, playing..etc..most of my sat r burnt wit shift work in hospital..i try to see my grandma wenever i can...next tue is her 75yr old birthday..i went to see her today..promised to make it for her birthday celebration next saturday..luv grandma..

Sanika my favourite gal (cousin)
Learnt malayalam for her....very naughty..some1 who calls me cheachi very loud...hahaha

Uncle Damo...person i alwaz listen 2..an uncle who takes care of his nieces n nephews wit lots of luv...alwaz there for us...

A day i took to think...

2008-02-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

My favourite tree near my grandma's plc eversince i was schooling..every sat i walk past the tree..i feel happy seeing it..duno y

A day i took to think.....i spent my time yesterday.Following i took taxi as usual to work thinking...wat am i thinking? is a gd question..an ans to my action n wat i reali want...kinda my own thoughts..confusing..ya thats me..i guess wat i want is far from me..i thought im there but i wasnt and not..my options r changing..i need some time to actually process it..i guess im brave enough...haha

bday

2008-02-15T21:27:00.000+08:00

me myself

2008-02-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

haha...the daz r sweeping away so fast....hmmm its been so long i have updated my blog...juz been busy...luv the new yr started wit gd opening...gd options in life..etc...see how it goes...

2007-12-11T14:42:00.000+08:00

Its end of the yr...time to think wat has happen in the yr n to change for better the next....

my first

2007-12-11T13:50:00.000+08:00

hello ppl...life starts agains...hmm wad u think? me still thinking how wat to decide..