Updates....

(dedicated to my shamrock dear)

Hello.....its been long since my updates..

Nothing much life has been the same..

Going work and hm....out wit my shamrock person.

wat's seriously new is...

im actuali planning for my june leave...

a trip?...not sure of destination...

parents hve agreed for the holiday...

surprise but aint sure how?

my job search also never ending...

wat else?

ya some1 is appearing to me nowadaz...

i realise tat...im aint looking for tat person..

im suprise to see him...getting my attention..

but im juz me...i was rude to him tat day..

tats old story....

anyway 2day is tamil new yr...

normal working day....

after work i went to see Street Kings

Wow!

i luv keanu reeves
movies....

actuali him lah

eversince i saw him in speed.......

my sec sch daz

its was really nice movie...........

2day i went wit my shamrock (nickname)

gd movie....watch it!

after movie came hm....bro again restrictions

my god!

i give up!

i dun like restrictions nowadaz

me way out of it now..

nobody should...

simple matter

i dun like screaming etc...

telling me

plss !

am i gonna listen?

i hate it!

men dun understand reali

i dun wish to argue..

i had enough with everything...

im not totally angry juz mad! to say a little..

im gonna blow up one of the daz....reali

im a girl who has been nice n listen

i dun think i can cope wit it anymore..

Im juz there

Its been more than a week me
update

wats up wit me
lately

2day im
juz........

Tired

not in the mood

to begin wit im sad actually

so where am i?

juz there..

im not in a mood of
arguing.....

defensive.............etc

juz b sad over and done wit
it...

am i dragging...guess
so

wel i didnt wake up form wrong
side...

juz ppl aint making my
day..

my family luvs me but they dun c my
interest

marriage which is
far..im not there

cant pursue
studies

same days

being scolded for being thin

compare past
present

thinking wat happen in
past

ppl that r gone forgotten

but reminded

im sad ........very actually

At the end of the day.......what i feel
is...

juz leave everything to my
determination.....go all the way for wat i want in
life..

im fed up wit this rountine
life...........

i wana go all the way for watever i
want

no such thing as things will happen when
its has to happen

BULLSHIT!

2day i went to work.......

the onli 8hrs im out of my personal
life

....actuali my peacefull
time

Nothing matters to me except my
work....completing task...

After work everything comes back to
mind...

Took my time came home....shower eat
etc...

First task after that on my
laptop...

Search for jobs......FOUND!

send off my resume received
email.......will reply soon

basically i wana work n study overseas my ULTIMATE DREAM now..

im not sure how far can i
go...

but im willing to
try...

Coz studying and working r the two things
im good at...

im alwaz being stop to do wat i
want

tis time i will
try

can say im saying tis out of my
fustration

i luv my family n friends,
ppl

juz wana b myself

juz quiet

im juz sitting in my room and laptop
on

2day is not my
day

now im gona watch movie Game
Plan

on my laptop....sleep after tat

my tv is occupied with family watching
show..

dun wana join them juz b myself..

gdnite.