My luv for tattoo

2day had an hectic day

Same ill pts..went out a while..came back hm

..but somthing in my mind

its been whole week in my mind..

eversince i see ppl wit tattoo...

temptations so there...!


Well Ive been thinking abt it since last yr...

n me watching maimi ink n LA ink....


Even my whole family watches it...

but they shook their head a NO for tattoo

they say it isnt gd image of a girl...potrays bad image

Y????

i thought ppl should like a person for who one is???..

doesnt character mean anything? or not important?

ask seriously y isnt it ok?

its a body art...





the owner of the body has the right...right?

mine is tradtional family but i guess they should give in my little request...

y isnt a person wit tattoo gd or does it change a person in whole?

my desire to have one little tattoo.....a memory of my life..

when comes to my desire

i never say no to it...

And when sumting is on my mind persistantly, ive been gone all the way for it..

aint been a person who never do anything wit rationalizing with things..

To me its a simple and ok issue

not gonna tattto my whole body...juz a part...


i have alwaz been a family person not abt going over any1's word...

Even a guy i like, objects it...never against his words..

oneday eventually they might agree to it...

But i juz thinking..must say alwaz abt it past few days..










it will never b out of my mind...

Day went such...

Wat am i to say...?..i woke up wit a bad dream end

woke up

A dream of my luv one not ok...

too many thoughts

then started to get hook wit laptop...

browsing for things...setting up..

i found some interesting info abt ppl i noe...nvm

i started to search for job...ya..me wana quit..

Get new job elsewhere..basically im tired..

Wana go new environment..

dad is now asking me to go aussie...work

Im suprise!

anyway c wat comes next...


Evening was prayer time...brother participating in panguni 2morow same as thaipusam

prayed..n

prayed...

Then went to wait for deity god murugan statue to come in chariot..with priests

all the indian ppl wait for prayers

Every yr it comes to the neighbourhood from the temple
















holding my grandma hand tight i went pray...coz she was weak

Got a glimpse of statue..wit so much ppl around



sumthing abt tis event i believe is...i am attending tis festival since my childhood daz..

every yr i ask sumthing


the following yr its done...

tis yr...dunno..


been not my day today...


Im juz upset...sighs

10,000 B.c

The movie which i had no idea what was that....

I was called to watch the movie..tue afternoon on a heavy rainy day..

To me was what am i gonna understand with the stone age man language..

The movie started and i was suprised..actors spoke english..hahaha

Reali a nice movie!


Its a abt a young guy's love for his girl...who goes all the way to save her from

the evil ppl..or warlord..

A young mammoth hunter...who goes beyond all dangers to save his woman..n actually

shines out from others with his bravness n love..



He saves her n his ppl at the end of the day...




What was reali nice abt the movie was...the guy goes all the way to save his woman..

ya he did think abt the ppl..but didnt let go of her..

At the end of the day, how many guys actuali do that now...not saying there r


none but its less..truth


Very sad...really..


Its juz work n life.....with that also no much effort to keep a relationship

going.....

Very easy to say breakup when one cant go far...lame excuses..

Man n Woman r not like stone age..

Juz not the same...relationships r not the same......

?????

Past Few Daz

Wow my nights shifts over........wow wat a weekend..

i was damn busy....had too many things to do..

Sitting awhile became impossible to me n my colleagues

Too many distruptions....

I started work at 9pm..till 7am..i was on my toes.....my night shifts never been

such after sooo lonnng.....

After work v made it a point to have breakfast n taxi was everyday hmm.

wow spend daily on taxi fare...reali heart pain...

but v were reali very tired.....

Yesterday....came home...chat with dad n brother...having breakfast

slept for an hour...

Had a wake up call...1pm..

Got ready n left... for massage...realli need a massage after the long busy nights...

Wow damn sleepy sat on cab reach there

Went for traditional javanese massage....it was reali gd...

a moment my back pain was relieve...i felt reali relieve from my hospital stress..

I almost slept...

After that when back hm....and slept...poor brother took leave for me...waiting to

spend the day wit me...such a loving brother i ve..

hahaha.......

how sad is sad?

How sad is sad?

tears r flowing sometimes dried up

Im juz so broken now..thinking everything is for the best...........

That's what every1 is saying

whatever happens is for the best and for a reason.........no matter whoever says anything

who is affected is the person will b feeling it...

What i wanna say is, whatever is now is been decided for the best..

luv is not everything..future of luv must b considered..

Cant go on for the sake of luv..parents arent there for us....we r juz walking for

day by day in this relationship....

i walked tis far wit u coz i luved u......

This decision i took after thinking well....sumthing ive been thinking long enough..

for me n u...juz i didnt noe the day b4 was the day..time to say it...

I noe u will understand me...

Even ive left...walked out...the daz spent wit u..my laughter, cries

n the daz u sat beisde me during my sickness..our moments..everything is in my heart

My luv is there.....but i cant hang on when there is no future to it...

Sometimes its best to let go...i did for us...understanding our situation n u well...

Dun hve to stress ourselves....

i did my best as a gf to u being there 4 u..completing ur wishes..accepting u for u finally n left..

All the best for the future...segari.

Thinking

What can i say abt what im feeling...thoughts r flowing..

Sometimes v think it will b ok at the end of the day..

keep thinking such but truth might b it wont b..might not b..

But how far r v right abt that...

Aint angry or sad...juz thinking what's gonna b next...


Issues that ive past through..came over..now i juz wana decide

right this time..my best friend is alwaz there her words will ring impt in my life alwaz...

At the end of the day... a decision has to b made..i need time for that...i dunno how long will i take..but......

Hve gd day..till then..

Will update my decision...